Willpower

Affirmation of the Day: Lies are what we tell ourselves in the mirror at night. Truth is the mirror’s reply.

Will to power. Willpower. Do I have the will to achieve power? You must be the change you wish to see in the world. It would be hypocritical to have it any other way, yet the hypocritical is what we excel at. I should know. I’m just as human as anyone else.

It may be true, but can the truth be handled? The truth always has the potential for deeper harm than lies. Lies can be dismissed. Yet the truth, once known–inescapable, all-encompassing. Man comes to the crossroads: do I have the will? I have the longing–the dream, he thinks, but the will, well, I could say yes and the world would never be the wiser, I could say yes but I do think I would be lying. I would know that I was lying, even if the world doesn’t know.

History, after all, points to the contrary.

Man stands longing at the crossroads, mired in the wait, for a lack of perseverance to press forward. The easiest path is often the path that leads nowhere at all–the circular trail to nowhere.

I depend on my perceptions of reality–on the pre-conceived boundaries as set by society. Dwelling on this issue, no matter–trying to come to terms. I really on the work of others. I profess independence, yet I hide amidst the foundations of cozy uniformity. Go with the flow. Don’t think too hard, it will come in time.

Waiting, what is with all the waiting? Man can but shake his head.

Good things come to those who wait.

How cruel is that? Untrue as well–the world must be moved, and someone must take the courage to move it. So it always goes. The waiting is merely waiting for someone else to do what you might have done. Such a notion! Surely man recoils at the insinuation. Yet reality looms: I call myself free, he whispers, yet I am content to submissive docility, waiting for the changes I wish to see, writing about them, idolizing them, but never once myself for the doing.

Waiting on the world to change. Still waiting. As the song says, one day this generation is going to rule the population…and what changes?

The ultimate question put before man at that crossroads comes not long after this thought: am I weak, than? Is it a factor of strength and weakness, or do some people simply have this capability–this fortitude for change–and others inherently don’t?

All answers lie in the self. But how does one strengthen the self? Through will. How does one strengthen their will, their resolve? A much more difficult prospect altogether. The first step to believing, after all, is having the will to do so.

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One thought on “Willpower

  1. It’s coming around to the evening and I shouldn’t be thinking so heavily, more a relaxing hour wouldn’t you say? I can’t help but think when I read you. You’re a bit like me in exploring my own humanity.

    First on truth, Oscar Wilde said it best – ““Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth.” A lovely quote that tied in my last post.

    The thing is, I believe we use the mask far more often than we realize. Inherently, we know exactly what we’re capable of. Of course we tend to use the excuse, “I had no idea, until (blankety blank) circumstances dictated my actions (shit happens).” Bull…We’re fully aware of a large constiuent of choices in any given situation. I honestly, believe we know exactly how we’ll react and the reasons behind those actions. Yet we apply a mask and play down our capabilities. There is one mask that comes into play more than any other ‘fear’.

    So in the end it’s not what we can do or even what we’re willing to do, it’s a question of being true to ourselves or allowing our mask to hide who we really are. Truth is whatever we make of it. Then again all this might make sense to me but seem totally foreign…(Hugs)Indigo

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